To love no one

I said, "The odds are small; let's just give up,"

He agreed that might be best.

The weight was lifted, like I breathed my last,

Finally, we were laid to rest.

I said, "I do feel very light lately,"

They gave two cents of advice,

The February chill whistled into my ears,

The cold, dry air stung my eyes.

I replied, "Sorry, I won't go today,"

I said I needed to study for a test.

My words bounced off the walls inside me,

The hollow space inside my chest.

I said, "Go ahead, go on without me."

I said I won't be sad, I won't.

I really, truly, didn't need company,

Perfectly fine on my own.

I said, "No, it's okay. I'll be okay."

I said words that had to be said,

I had started to feel nothing at all

I fear I might be dead.